Hope

I am hoping to get all this insurance crap figured out

I hope that my divorce is finalized sooner than later

I hope that my mon can be here for the surgery

I hope one day to feel like my self again

I hope those around me understand exactly how hard this is

I hope one day someone can tell that behind my smile and jokes I am actually in a lot of pain.

I hope for love.

I hope for understanding.

I hope that one day I will be able to comprehend all the pain.

I hope for smiles.

I hope for a miracle.

I hope that you feel love and know you are special and important to someone.

I hope that you smile. 

Hysterectomy. ...

So I have to have a hysterectomy with tubal removal.  It's the only way I can be healthy.

The cost of this procedure is getting to be really expensive.

If you can donate anything please do.

https://www.youcaring.com/medical-fundraiser/help-kendra-through-her-surgery/148878

If you have any questions please let me know.

Thank you and may God bless.

Bedrest

Bed rest has sucked. No joke but I am trying to be positive about this all so my list of positive things while on bed rest.

1. Aunt D's french toast
2. Finding out how strong I actually am
3. Re - connecting with old friends
4. HGTV
5. Lifetime movies
6. Spending time with my Grandma and Aunt
7. Relaxing
8. Reading and not for school
9. Taking medical leave from school for a bit.
10. Wrote letters to my brother and uncle
11. Strawberry cheese cake icecream

See 11 things that are positive. :)

Surgery Update (TMI warning)

WARNING MIGHT BE TMI FOR SOME

What I know so far is the there was no complications.

He didn't look at my ovary. My uterus was full of gunk. There was old tissue and some new and he think there was some left over from when I had my molar pregnancy. 

So he sent that off to be tested and I will know more at my follow up next week.

Right now I feel tried and have some serious cramps going on.

Still praying that the results come back as good.

Thanks for the prays and thoughts.

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Can't sleep

The adventures that inspired my blog

Surgery

Well the big surgery is tomorrow and I am nervous and scared and feel damaged.

A divorced women with little chance of bearing children doesn't work well in today's society. 

I got a blessing today from my dad and another man from our ward. It was an amazing thing and said just what I needed to hear.

Everything is in Heavenly Father's hands and I know that if I am doing what I am supposed to I will be blessed.

Please pray for me.

The beginning of a new chapter

Well we all now divorce sucks but sometimes it happens. I am currently going through a divorce and while it sucks and I feel like its a fight and a struggle I know that once it is all over I will be myself again and be closer to Heavenly Father. While my divorce is in the process I am not dating. I am becoming closer to Heavenly Father and figuring out the path that he wants me on. Just a side note: I am not saying that the 2 and half years I was married were a waste because I learned a lot and I believe I went through that for a reason I may not know that reason now but maybe I soon will. Other then that I have been going on adventures with my niece and nephew. They love frozen and playing and hiding. This new blog will tell of our adventures as well as things from my life. Enjoy reading!!