Learning to lean.....

So I have had my anxiety most my adult life, mix that with OCD, and PTSD it is not pretty. I have had to deal with it alone so having people I can talk to and lean on when I need them is something new to me.

I used to be ashamed of my issues, I would try so hard to hide it, and I definitely did not talk about it with anyone.

I started to talk more about it this past October. It has been amazing to have people that understand and that are truly there for me it has truly been amazing and I am loving it.

Jance is amazing and he helps me cope with it all. Some days are way harder than others and some days are the best.

I also have awesome in laws that understand and help me through bad days.

I have learned that I am perfect the way I am, I have learned to lean on others when I need them.

It has been an amazing blessing.

I am so thankful for all I am learning and I am truly amazed at the love I have been given.

Jance is a huge blessing and I am so grateful for him every day.

8 months.....(almost)

So this week will mark 8 months since Jance and I have been married/Together. (Yes, I am one of those girls that counts the months.) Jance and I have been through a lot and have learned so very much. Jance is so amazingly awesome and I am so very blessed to be his wife.

We all know that I have some GAD, PTSD and a few other things. They are not easy to deal with but Jance has been so amazing at learning and helping me through it. Jance is so very kind and understanding about it. He has taken on so much, and he does not  complain at all about it. He helps me through all my anxiety attacks and is just there for me.

These past 8 (almost) months have been the most amazing, most spiritual, and I have grown so very much. I am actually happy, the happiest I have ever been. Jance is a dream come true. I never thought that I would find someone like him. He is truly the best man that I could have ever asked for.

I am so very blessed that Heavenly Father put us in each others paths that day. I am grateful that Jance wants to be sealed to me and it is our goal. Jance is amazing and I am so very much in love.

I am excited for the our future. I am blessed to be his wife and I am blessed to be apart of his family.

I am loving life.

Road trip.......

So Jance and I are on a business trip and we have had a case of bad luck we have had some issues with the trailer yesterday and today.

I have learned that life just seems to happen.

To smile through the bad and tough time.

Laugh through the bad and tough time and too look for the silver lining.

And last prayers work. (I already knew this but its nice to be reminded)

Jance and I have had so much time to talk, laugh giggle and most importantly pray together.

We have worked through these rough days side by side as a team. Jance has been so amazingly positive. His parents very very understanding of what's happening.

I am so happy that Heavenly Father gives us these "bad" days to show us how grateful we should be for the things around us and the things we have.

Tonight Jance and I needed to do laundry so we had to find a laundromat in a town we have never been in and stay there for a few hours to do laundry. It was hot and awkward, but Jance and I had a fun time.

We also needed to find a grocery store, which we found and were so grateful for.

I never realized how nice it is to know where the grocery store etc are.

I am so blessed in life.

I am grateful for each and every one of them.