The believe ring a story of true friendship

So there I was crying in Stephanie living room. I had been dumped. I was heart broken, sad and a mess.

Stephanie hugged me and said "we are not going to stay in tonight its ladies night" I reluctantly got ready Steph did my hair.  We went to our favorite bar to see this one dj that is amazing and to drink my sorrows away.

With it being ladies night the bar was crawling with guys looking to hook up, flirt etc since I was just dumped I was not interested,  but the guys weren't picking up on that. 

Stephanie being the amazing friend (I had no idea she was going to do this) climbed up on a table got the bars attention took a ring off her finger. Pulled me up to the table gave a speech about how I am her bestie for lifey and if I would be her wifey. The bar cheered as I said yes thinking it was a real proposal.  The guys backed off and we got free drinks all night.

Well I found that ring yesterday.  I cried. Thank you Stephanie for always looking out for me. I will wear it every day now.

Not letting him control me anymore

I am done letting thoughts of him control me.

I am done thinking if he has changed and I am done wondering what if.

He didn't love me then and he won't now or ever.

I have been through a lot of hard things in my life but leaving him was one of the hardest. I am and was a mess, just because you don't see every aspect of my pain doesn't mean that it wasn't there.

I married him because I loved him and wanted to spend forever with him, he said he wanted the same but his actions proved other wise.

I am done feeling damaged, I have learned from this and will keep the lessons in my heart forever.

I want the divorce to be finalized so that we can both just move on and be happy in life.

So if you have questions about it or my pain or my feelings how about you ask me.

My pain is real, the abuse was real, if you weren't there you can't say anything about the situation. 

I am grateful for the friends and family that have been by my side.

I am strong and I will get through this.

We first meet (a Stephanie story)

Stephanie and I first meet on a YSA hike.
We hiked at laughed and sat on a rock and just talked.

Our first real hang out was a YSA campout.

Kattie introduced us. The 3 of us were fun. So on this campout we had a 2 hour drive full of laughs and a few u turns to get to the place. It was fun. We also had Kattie dog Greta with us. All in a two man tent.

We played chubby bunny, ate our feelings and laughed until our side hurt. It was so much fun.

It was an awesome we made jokes and became instant friends.

Stephanie keep looking down on us all until we meet again.

-Kendra

Dear Stephanie

Hey Steph, it's been a while since you been gone. I miss you like crazy. So much has been going on and I find my self wanting to call or text you. You were always there for me no matter what.

Stephanie, I wish I could have been there for you when you needed me most.  I have so many memories of us that the play like a movie in my head.

Remember when we would tell each other bed time stories. And you teaching me to bake, I still haven't mastered your pumpkin muffins.  Remember the bacon in the washer lol...I miss you.

Remember the bar crawl, we didn't always to good things but we took care of each other the best we could. 

Remember when we first hung out at the camp out Kattie introduced us. We ate our feelings and all 3 of us and greta (kattue yorkie) slept in that tiny tent.

I know you're looking down on me and I carry you with me in all I do.

I love you Stephanie,  I am glad you're finally at peace. Smile down on me. 

Love,
Kendra

Pics pics pics

The kids that light up my life :)

And a hair update :)

Don't need surgery.

Well I saw on oncologist who says my blood work and tissue sample does have precancerous cells but it looks like they got it all. yay!!!

I do have to watch my uterus activity closer lol. If I start having the same issue I need to go to the doc asap. Because the tumor could be back. 

Still dealing with divorce. Some people never keep their word.  Hopefully I will be able to get the remainder of my stuff and it will be over. I am so passed ready to move on and get on with my life. 

Thank you for all the love and support.

Another blog update will be pics :)