Not letting him control me anymore

I am done letting thoughts of him control me.

I am done thinking if he has changed and I am done wondering what if.

He didn't love me then and he won't now or ever.

I have been through a lot of hard things in my life but leaving him was one of the hardest. I am and was a mess, just because you don't see every aspect of my pain doesn't mean that it wasn't there.

I married him because I loved him and wanted to spend forever with him, he said he wanted the same but his actions proved other wise.

I am done feeling damaged, I have learned from this and will keep the lessons in my heart forever.

I want the divorce to be finalized so that we can both just move on and be happy in life.

So if you have questions about it or my pain or my feelings how about you ask me.

My pain is real, the abuse was real, if you weren't there you can't say anything about the situation. 

I am grateful for the friends and family that have been by my side.

I am strong and I will get through this.