Baking with Steph

As I sit here thinking a Stephanie story came to mind. Many of you know Stephanie and Most do not, If you do not know her she was an amazing chef/baker. She taught me most of what I know. One day we wanted to bake and Steph and I never did anything half-assed. So we went shopping and got flour, ten pounds of it, sugar, chocolate, stuff to make frosting. We did it all homemade :). Well we started at 3pm and we didnt stop baking till the next morning at about 5pm....we drank a lot of energy drinks. But it was worth it. I have been missing her so much the past couple of days and have been longing to talk to her. She truly was an amazing person and if you knew her, truly knew who she was you would agree. Stephanie was not only my friend but she was my sister, we were soul mates in a since. I do carry a lot of guilt not being there for her towards the end of her journey her on earth. My heart breaks because I miss her and maybe its selfish to wish for more days with her. I wish for more memories with her. I know she is no longer hurting and I know she is smiling down on me telling me to follow my heart and my own path. I miss her... I know the pain will never go away...I know the days will get easier...but I promised her that her story will be told no matter how hard it is for me. I loved that girl, she was stronger than she thought and she was funny. She could always cheer me up no matter what. We would eat our feelings together, try to drink our problems away together. We were there for each other. I wish I could make a phone call to Heaven....I need her...as selfish as that is...her advice was amazing and I need to hear it. So I will try to imagine what she would be telling me now. Remember to love your loved ones and be there for me you never ever know when the last time you tell them will be. Be kind to one another. Be happy and follow your heart.