Being angry with God
Yes I said being angry with
God.
Have you ever been angry with God? How did you handle
it?
Did you talk to him about it
or give him the silent treatment? Did you pray to him still? Worship and praise
him still?
I have been angry with God
for a while now. How did I handle, I ignored him, didn’t pick up my scriptures,
stopped going to church and turned a deaf ear to anything he was trying to tell
me.
I can tell you now that the
only one I hurt by doing the above-mentioned things was ME. God was still there trying to talk to me and
trying to let me know he loved me, I ignored all the attempts. He put people in
my life that were trying to lead me back to him and I pushed them away and made
empty promises to them.
I was angry because MY life
wasn’t going the way I wanted it to go.
I had forgotten in my angry that my life doesn’t follow my plan but HIS.
MY life has a glorious plan and HE knows where those paths go. I had selfishly
said to him “ I don’t care what you have in store for me this isn’t the path I
wanted to be on”.
I never wanted a divorce, I
wanted my first marriage to be my only marriage but that isn’t the path I was
on. I needed to learn things from my first marriage things that I didn’t know
about myself. God knew this, while I did not.
Had I trusted him fully with all my heart, I wouldn’t be writing this
blog.
I want more than anything to
be a mother and I had two precious angels given to me then ripped away before I
even got to hold them. I was angry and
sad that he would give me such an amazing gift such a glorious gift and then
take it back so soon. My heartaches to this day for those angels of mine. I know there was a reason for that, and I am
now trusting in God to let me know those reasons when the time is right.
Being angry with God is a
choice we make. Again it’s a choice we
make. We should come to him with our anger, our sorrows, and our sadness and
let him heal us from the inside out.
He loves us; he is there for
us. We have everything because of him and his love for us.
As any child gets angry with
there parents, I think he expects us to get angry how we handle that anger is
the choice we make.
I am no longer angry with
God. I have talked it out with his so to say.
I hope this helps you guys,
and kind of clarifies the angry with God part of the last blog I wrote.
-KP