Being angry with God

Being angry with God

Yes I said being angry with God.

Have you ever been angry with God? How did you handle it?

Did you talk to him about it or give him the silent treatment? Did you pray to him still? Worship and praise him still?

I have been angry with God for a while now. How did I handle, I ignored him, didn’t pick up my scriptures, stopped going to church and turned a deaf ear to anything he was trying to tell me. 

I can tell you now that the only one I hurt by doing the above-mentioned things was ME.  God was still there trying to talk to me and trying to let me know he loved me, I ignored all the attempts. He put people in my life that were trying to lead me back to him and I pushed them away and made empty promises to them.

I was angry because MY life wasn’t going the way I wanted it to go.  I had forgotten in my angry that my life doesn’t follow my plan but HIS. MY life has a glorious plan and HE knows where those paths go. I had selfishly said to him “ I don’t care what you have in store for me this isn’t the path I wanted to be on”.

I never wanted a divorce, I wanted my first marriage to be my only marriage but that isn’t the path I was on. I needed to learn things from my first marriage things that I didn’t know about myself. God knew this, while I did not.  Had I trusted him fully with all my heart, I wouldn’t be writing this blog.

I want more than anything to be a mother and I had two precious angels given to me then ripped away before I even got to hold them.  I was angry and sad that he would give me such an amazing gift such a glorious gift and then take it back so soon. My heartaches to this day for those angels of mine.  I know there was a reason for that, and I am now trusting in God to let me know those reasons when the time is right.

Being angry with God is a choice we make.  Again it’s a choice we make. We should come to him with our anger, our sorrows, and our sadness and let him heal us from the inside out.

He loves us; he is there for us. We have everything because of him and his love for us.

As any child gets angry with there parents, I think he expects us to get angry how we handle that anger is the choice we make.

I am no longer angry with God. I have talked it out with his so to say.

I hope this helps you guys, and kind of clarifies the angry with God part of the last blog I wrote.

-KP