Praying...and answers

So I posted a little bit about this on Facebook and my blog. If you haven't read the being angry with God post please read it, its a few post down from this.

So I have been going to this non-denominational church and by going I mean I have been there like a few times.(This church is called Catalyst  it is in Colfax, WA, if you're interested). Once a month they do this thing called elevate, it is at night on a Sunday evening, they play music and have a Worship, its an hour and half filled with love and feeling the Spirit. 

(For my LDS readers, I firmly believe that you can feel the spirit in any church...do not want to debate it ) 

I was hesitant to go, I have been telling people I would go and then I would make up some lame excuse not go. Well this past Sunday I went and oh my goodness... I felt the love from my Heavenly Father so much, It seriously felt like a warm hug. I prayed harder, with more passion and with more desire then I have ever in my life. I prayed that he would take my broken heart and heal it. I prayed that he would take all my anger away and that he would heal my heart from being hurt. I prayed that he would take my sadness and hurt and make it joy. That I could take my sadness and learn from it and that it would no longer brother me.

I can honestly tell you that this morning when I woke up, I felt in a better mood then I had in along time and I felt that a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Am i totally fixed/healed? No. Will I be? Of course!

It took years for this pain and anger to build and it will take time to heal, but I know I am on the right path. I know that I am blessed with a loving Heavenly Father who loves me an knows my name. I know that Jesus dies upon the cross for me.  I know that he felt every single pain that I am feeling. I know that he knows my heart better than anyone else and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Thank you to all who encouraged me to go last night and who are there for me. It truly means the world to me. 

-KP