Feeling Like Myself Again

Feeling like myself again.

That is my sentence of the week. I have been in a spiral that was going down and kept going down. I took a lot of patience from a lot of people to get me out of that spiral.

Lately people have been giving me crap about how open I am about my anxiety, my depression and my PTSD, but if sharing my story helps others find hope or strength I will continue to share.

I am finally figuring out how to be happy and how to not let what others say affect me. Yes it took twenty seven and half years but it is silly to let others dictate how you live. Not everyone will like you and that is okay.

You make choices and every choice has a consequence, good or bad, it has one. For example:

Jance and I eloped: We are in love and we followed the prompting we received. We have been blessed. Some bad: Not everyone was okay with that choice and that's okay because the only people that need to be okay with it are Jance and myself. Don't get me wrong we are very appreciative of all the love and support that we have gotten.

I am sick of it being thrown in my face that we eloped and I am sick of people saying that we didn't follow the spirit. We did. Heavenly Father is amazing and has shown Jance and I that we are meant to be together despite those hoping we will fail. We will not fail because this is it. He is the one. I love him and nothing is ever going to change that.

So I am no longer letting if people agreed with us eloping or not get to me because carrying that around is not healthy. I have nothing to feel guilty over. I do not need any ones approval of how we got married or of me. They either like me or they don't. That is their choice and they will have to live the consequence.

Jance and I will be sealed and it will be amazingly awesome. We love each other and Heavenly Father knows what's in our hearts. I am loving life. I am loving the blessings that are coming from Heavenly Father. I love my in laws , Jance family is awesome.

I am letting go of fear and letting go of self doubt and self hatred. I do this self destruct thing (Jance hates it) I hate that I do that to myself. I am now trying to stop that, it's not healthy.

So I am feeling like myself again. It is awesome and amazing. I am glad to be back to myself and I know Jance is too.

Thank you for all the support and love. I love you guys!!!

-Kendra